benched

i just accomplished my roll-off checklist and my clearance form. i must say, this is it. finally, i am done here in my project.

the 2-year employment bond is the only thing that kept me in this company. i only stayed for a year and 4 months in my team - so that would mean that i still have 8 months left before i could try my luck on other companies.

looking back, it seems that it was just yesterday when i first got a glimpse of everyone. i remember, the hr recruiter was pushing me to start immediately but much to my dismay, the project is still unprepared for my roll-in: i had no workstation, no logins, no employee number, no access badge, and a lot of things i didn't have. well, i think that was too much especially when they are anticipating a new joiner. the team that i joined was also new, i.e. no process at all. there has been issues - politics, et al., and a lot, has happened. everything has settled eventually, and i'm leaving with pride.

i joined the company since i wanted to build a career. then i learned that management has a different plan for me - a path that is no different from that in the previous industry that i've been. clearly, expectations were not properly set. i felt that i'm in the military - i have no say and i'm expected to obey orders. though the path was to go up, the options are not too much as my experience and training is totally different from what the skill sets of the majority of projects have. hence, i expressed my desire to leave my team.

i am happy thought that finally, my request was granted. but now, i've got nowhere to go yet. i have 2 options though. first, i have applied for a workforce transfer so i could be in a field that i have always been hoping for since i was in college. second, if the offer on my first option is not as good as i have expected then i could stay on my current workforce and start from scratch, i.e. experience what a normal new joiner would undergo - trainings, bootcamps, bench.

now, all i could do is wait for my deployment details. i'm technically benched. floating. i'm looking at a bright side though - i'm finally building my own career.